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Journal Entry: Thu Jul 12, 2007, 12:57 AM
  • Mood: Shame
  • Listening to: Sergio Mendes - Mas Que Nada
I'm beginning to think that being an unacceptably cynical thinker (I'm "only" 22 they like to tell me), in conjunction with being an extremely boring person, is interfering with my art. It's why I stopped drawing; everything was just wrong. I always think "that's not what it fucking looks like" and I start over. It's why I only really draw things when I have reference pictures. My friend suggests "if you want to draw anything, first you have to know what it looks like." I have three (don't know why so many) empty sketch books with half of the pages missing in all of them, and 2 jars of almost unused pencils that I bought 5 years ago.

Sometimes I feel bad that I'm not able to portray my thoughts in the exact way that I'd like to. I feel a strong need to draw with certain degree of realism in order to take them seriously. I once wrote a short, lewd series of online comic strips because I felt that that was all I was good for. (The only "views" I got were from ME when I forgot to log in...) I really wasn't getting better with practice; I've been drawing since I was 4, and my shit hasn't been improving past age 11.

So I bought a digital camera. But I still can't help but feel that it's not good enough. People have told me "nice composition" and such. What the fuck is composition? I've never taken a photo class in my life, I don't know good from bad. All I really do is shoot macro shots at funny angles and it obviously floats peoples boats.

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 22
  • Current Residence: Chicago
  • Interests: Not too much
  • Favourite movie: Killing Time, American Psycho, Soho Square
  • Favourite band or musician: Massive Attack, Leftfield, Daft Punk, Astrud Gilberto
  • Favourite genre of music: Drum & Bass (DnB), Club, Dance, House, Bossa
  • Favourite artist: Luis Royo, *genzoman
  • Favourite poet or writer: Margaret Weis
  • Favourite photographer: Me
  • Favourite style of art: Anything trippy
  • Operating System: Vista
  • MP3 player of choice: Windows Media Player 11
  • Favourite game: Hitman (as a series)
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC
  • Favourite cartoon character: Lain Iwakura, Duke Togo
  • Personal Quote: Tilt them titties wayward!
  • Tools of the Trade: Rechargable Energizer AA's

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~Blythie131:iconBlythie131: Jul 30, 2007, 8:17:47 PM
The "pleasantville color thing" as you put it is a setting on my camera. I can make one color stand out and the rest black and white.

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Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.

-Bella Swan, New Moon
=jotachaves:iconjotachaves: Jul 13, 2007, 1:09:52 PM
Thank you very much for the devwatch.:)

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:firelite-photo:

A sad and lonely Man
Je suis seulement un homme triste et seul.
:firelite-photo:
`glowing:iconglowing: Oct 3, 2006, 5:48:47 PM
:poke:

Ha ha..figured you needed an updated message!!

Thanks for saying HI!!

How are ya? :hug:

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My baby girls account [link] Hannah-bug

My Myspace account [link]

"When Life isn't a bed of roses, remember the one who wore the thorns"
`glowing:iconglowing: Dec 22, 2005, 8:25:46 AM
Hey there!!!! You have a great Christmas too!!!! :hug:

Hope all is well! :D

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My baby girls account [link] Hannah-bug

My Myspace account [link]

"When Life isn't a bed of roses, remember the one who wore the thorns"
*belafantasy:iconbelafantasy: Aug 10, 2005, 8:02:07 AM
:heart:

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"If your path has no obstacles, then your fight is not fair..." ;p

=p Wanna a print, a final fantasy 7 doujinshi or a magnetic chibi? =p check it here:[link]

My God, my everything! :heart:
~silentXninja:iconsilentXninja: Jun 6, 2005, 8:11:59 PM
Thanks for the comment :heart: And sweet gallery, too. Great photos!! :glomp:

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俺様の美技に酔いな!
~IggyHazard:iconIggyHazard: Jun 4, 2005, 9:28:53 PM
You're in TaeKwonDo? :D I was to0, for a time (1990-1993). What belt (+stripe/degree) are you? I made first degree Black Belt.

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"Let's have a party
There's a full mo0n in the sky
It's the hour of the wolf
And I don't want to die"
~Oingo Boingo, No One Lives Forever
~trulymadlydeeplyyou:icontrulymadlydeeplyyou: Mar 4, 2005, 9:07:03 AM
hey, ran into your gallery again :) Nice :)
~takasuke:icontakasuke: Jan 20, 2005, 11:46:04 PM
rock the drow rogue, dude. im always a drow rogue/shadow dancer. ^_^

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Lengst inne på Dieter Meyer satt Clementine...
Om du hadde vært min mann nå
sko me danst, danst, danst
en jævel av en tango
~8thRaven:icon8thRaven: Jan 7, 2005, 8:45:05 PM
Always you are welcome!
~8thRaven:icon8thRaven: Jan 6, 2005, 10:11:18 PM
Thanks for stopping by , and thanks for the comments!!!
*belafantasy:iconbelafantasy: Dec 13, 2004, 4:06:24 AM
:love:

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"If your path has no obstacles, then your fight is not fair..." ;p

=p Wanna a print, a final fantasy 7 doujinshi or a magnetic chibi? =p check it here:[link]

My God, my everything! :heart:
~avalon:iconavalon: Oct 30, 2004, 11:54:49 AM
Thanks for the thanks.

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"Evil" is a point of view.
*Bestfriends:iconBestfriends: Oct 29, 2004, 4:44:44 PM
Thanx for the watch...nice trees.
*belafantasy:iconbelafantasy: Oct 21, 2004, 11:32:29 AM
:heart: :smooch:

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"If your path has no obstacles, then your fight is not fair..." ;p

=p Wanna a print, a final fantasy 7 doujinshi or a magnetic chibi? =p check it here:[link]

My God, my everything! :heart:
~killbabykill:iconkillbabykill: Oct 18, 2004, 9:12:09 AM
Thanks for the dev watch

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I'm not very smart but I can lift heavy things.
~ginjin3:iconginjin3: Oct 14, 2004, 7:43:55 PM
moo!

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everything we want comes from happiness, not the other way around.

ako ang bata'! :sun:
~halbe:iconhalbe: Sep 25, 2004, 12:42:57 PM
Thanks for your comment :D

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Michael
*belafantasy:iconbelafantasy: Sep 19, 2004, 2:39:37 PM
:kiss:

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"If your path has no obstacles, then your fight is not fair..." ;p

=p Wanna a print, a final fantasy 7 doujinshi or a magnetic chibi? =p check it here:[link]

My God, my everything! :heart:
*belafantasy:iconbelafantasy: Sep 10, 2004, 4:48:51 PM
:heart:
Missed you...

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"If your path has no obstacles, then your fight is not fair..." ;p

=p Wanna a print, a final fantasy 7 doujinshi or a magnetic chibi? =p check it here:[link]

My God, my everything! :heart:
~photoerdna:iconphotoerdna: May 14, 2004, 4:56:50 AM
:bow: Thank you for your nice comment. I appreciate it very much!
~halbe:iconhalbe: Apr 15, 2004, 8:43:47 PM
Thanks for the comment.

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Michael